It’s been 11 days since I first ended up in the hospital for an emergency cerclage to stitch my cervix shut and keep this baby inside for as long as possible. It’s been a rough day so far, which is strange, because yesterday and the day before were so upbeat and I felt really good.
This laying around all day is MUCH harder than it would seem at first. Most people would jump at the chance to shirk all responsibilities and just veg out on the couch for a few months, but I am not most people. I like to move it move it and forcing myself to remain calm and stationary just may drive me a tad insane.
And Greg, bless his big heart, is already starting to show signs of cracking too. Today he made me cry because I couldn’t find the bottle of Tylenol he’d bought for me last week and I asked him to buy another one. He freaked out a bit because he didn’t want to “spend more money on drugs that (I’m) just going to lose again” and he “had better ways to spend his time than running to the store every five minutes for me.” He’d just come home from working a 9 hour day and I could see that he was really tired and was just venting and didn’t mean what he was saying, but I cried hysterically anyway (TOTALLY NOT MY USUAL GIG) and he ran around the house searching until he found the elusive Tylenol bottle (in the bathroom cabinet, in plain sight – *sigh*). Then he grabbed me some tissues and a couple of Tylenol and sat down to rub my back until I stobbed with the sob fest. Poor guy. I wouldn’t want to be thrust into his shoes…EVER. Do everything and deal with a crazy, hormonal, bedridden pregnant wife? No thanks.
To top off this stellar day, I just puked my guts out, my head’s spinning, my guts are churning away and I feel quite disgusting. I thought I might be coming down with some sort of infection, but I’ve been on antibiotics since my surgery so I think I can pretty much rule that one out. Our tenant’s newborn is sick with vomiting and diarrhea and I’ve been around her the last couple of days, so I wonder if she has some sort of bug and I’ve caught it too? I’ve also had some amazing friends bring over food, but I wonder if they’re trying to poison us??? Kim, what did you put in those Enchiladas??? JK 😉 – they were delicious until they projectiled back up…
I think I just have to accept that there will be good days and bad and I’ll just have to do my best to focus on the positive aspects of life, such as feeling the baby kick the crap out of me and having the opportunity to relax – something I seldom get a chance to do.
I did have a chance to get working on some March Madness pics this afternoon and I posted the first little slideshow of family pics on my Facebook fan page. You can have a look at them here. Only a few of the entire session, but something to make my clients smile!
Good night my friends. I wish you all enough…