The Child is Gone

I was just listening to some old tunes while I repainted “Cora’s room” to a shade that won’t remind us of her every time we look at it.

This old Fiona Apple song came on. I had to listen to it twice. It sums up how I feel most days right now and how I feel like this pain can never be felt by anyone else like I feel it.

Just thought I’d share it with the world…

Darling, give me your absence tonight
Take the shade from the canvas and leave me the white
Let me sink in the silence that echoes inside
And don’t bother leaving the light on
”cause I suddenly feel like a different person .
From the roots of my soul come a gentle coercion
And I ran my hand o’er a strange inversion
A vacancy that just did not belong
The child is gone
Honey help me out of this mess
I’m a stranger to myself
But don’t reach for me, I’m too far away
I don’t wanna talk ’cause there’s nothing left to say
So my darling, give me your absence tonight
Take all of your sympathy and leave it outside
”cause there’s no kind of loving that can make this all right
I’m trying to find a place I belong
 
And I suddenly feel like a different person
From the roots of my soul come a gentle coercion
And I ran my hand over a strange inversion
As the darkness turns into the dawn
The child is gone
The child is gone
 
Music, along with photography and roller derby, seems to be one of the few places I can find peace right now. Every song affects me in some way and it is nice to be able to escape into it and forget about it all for awhile. But sometimes, I run across a song that relates exactly to my life and it stops me in my tracks instantly.
 
 I’m looking forward to roller derby practice tonight.

Have a good Sunday my friends. I wish you all enough…

One thought on “The Child is Gone

  1. Our Children are Gone!!! But as you say………….we are finding special strengths within ourselves! Thank-you so much for your Blogs they truely do help to give me strenght. Love ya kiddo xo ((hugs)) always
    Tracy xo

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